There is room for more than one Sun.
At a point in High School, I made a decision to always give people compliments and make someone laugh or at least smile. I mean why not? There’s already alot of hate in the world and I didn’t want to add to it.
I realized that everyone goes through rough paths and instead of adding spikes to their paths, I wanted to ease them. I wanted to be the sunshine on their rainy days. Doing this, had people pour compliments on my charisma and this made me so happy and content... Or so I thought.
I soon fell into the trap of wanting to be the only sunshine on people’s rainy days because why not? After all the whole world receives sunlight from one Sun. I didn’t understand why anyone would have another source of light, hope or joy other than me. When I would see them happy independent of any input from me, I would frown and get jealous. I had forgotten my original goal.
The beautiful thing about growth is the fact that it has enough room for improvement. I grew, got better and stopped being bitter. How? I identified how I was feeling and began to address it. I'd mentally make confessions in my head saying, "I'm happy for this person or that person." I corrected my mindset about wanting to be the only source of people's joy and happiness.
And I eventually came to this conclusion. As much as it's within my power, I'll make sure to not add to other people's tough times. But that doesn't mean they can't do well independent of me.
